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234 Age of Nations - Minui 4
Liisa Rebane
Today was the first time I truly experienced what my master called The Fatigue, my body is left wanting for simply the energy to lift my charcoal and record this novelty. My head pounds but I believe if required of me I could continue to Work. I understand that if I Work safely and consistently my capacity will grow. But one darker side is curious to discover that more fascinating side effect over the hill of Fatigue. For now I will try and be a wise pupil, my bed calls to me, a song more beautiful than I could have imagined.234 Age of Nations - Minui 18
Liisa Rebane
Though I have encountered The Fatigue several times now, I can never push myself to continue Working. It feels as though I’ve run up against a great palisade of weariness, and the Forms do not come to my mind. It is all I can do to manage a Trifling during these periods. If only my Master would allow me to copy a Circle to practice more regularly, I could push myself regardless of his oversight. I often have my journal with me when I am in his room to push my Work. I may be able to copy one of the Circles over time in secret.
If you are reading this dear master do not be disappointed with me, I will be careful, but since you will not allow it in your presence I must see to sating this curiosity in my own way.234 Age of Nations - Minui 33
Liisa Rebane
A silent fury must be quelled within me every evening I return home and fail once more to draw a Circle to the accuracy required. Its Meyda-well is correct, the Forms are right and proper, and I have even tried simply using Chips in case my Fatigue prevents me in some manner. I CANNOT WORK IT.234 Age of Nations - Atya 13
Liisa Rebane
I discovered the cause of this Phashing Unworkable Circle finally after two whole weeks of endless failed attempts. The single slab of stone I had been using to draw on had several raised bumps I paid no head at first and admittedly tenth inspection. I have had to sneak water and granite into my room more than once so as to polish the imperfections myself. Master has taken some minor concern upon his mind at my sudden need for endless hydration but I feigned a cough and fever which appears to have convinced him. I have just one large lump on this rock left and I shall commence my attempt at Working again.234 Age of Nations - Atya 20
Liisa Rebane
It Works! I gathered frost on the floor as details the Circle, and felt the Meyda wash over my Soul. I quickly became burdened with The Fatigue and decided to push no further tonight. I will revel for now in this first success, and I will be careful, I wish not for a sundered Soul.234 Age of Nations - Atya 21
Liisa Rebane
I write this with unsteady hand this evening. At least I believe it is evening, my senses still wash and swim with stimuli uncountable. I pushed past that harbinger headache and after some time it faded, replaced instead by a strange extrasensory experience that I hesitate to call delightful, but was no displeasure either. I sit writing in a stunned state, my skin still prickles, my eyes still sparkle, my tongue tastes a thousand foods, and I hear the songs of the world in cacophonous orchestra.234 Age of Nations - Atya 23
Liisa Rebane
No text accompanies this entry, instead there is a simple drawing of a small girl surrounded by lines that evoke small explosions or little “pops”. The girl appears to have been drawn crying but with a smile. She wears a simple dress with no pattern, is drawn kneeling on the ground and her hands are raised above her head palms open to the sky.234 Age of Nations - Canthui 17
Liisa Rebane
I had all but forgotten to record my thoughts as of late. When I return to my room after training I absorb myself in that world I call The Between. I cannot stop going to this place, where I encounter the world’s voice and feel its embrace in all senses. I seek to deepen the experience I will Work longer than I ever have tonight, my Soul never hurts, I do not believe my Master knows the true bounds of Workings. I have touched them, and they are beautiful.No more entries were ever written, but in the notes of another Wizard in the same year the loss of an apprentice to The Fatigue, and the recording of their behavior as a Tzedef have been discovered. It is believed this was Liisa Rebane.